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[15 Jul 2009|11:24pm] |
i just bought a taylor guitar. i almost got a twitter. i love my wife. Jesus is so amazing...
duck
soli deo gloria
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my wife is crazy. it makes me laugh.
i think that we should start a church. i really do. that is pretty scary to me. but it sounds right. so.... possibly it might be. Lord may it be that it is not some odd pride that i think i could somehow i can do; well, anything.
hopefully by His providence will show us how to do this thing.
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last night i was thinking whilst at work, that i would not get sick. this morning, however, sick i be. silliness run amuck.
tonight i am teaching at vineyard. John chapter 1 is the subject. and i am about to go down to the study and weed through it. i am trying to be ery patient while the Lord of all molds me into a new thing. it just hurts. i rather like my little mess.
here is a good quote. ''We must lay before Him what is in us, not what ought to be in us.'' - Letters to Malcolm: Chiefly on Prayer
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[11 Dec 2008|01:06pm] |
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hey. so a bunch has happened in the four years since i have been on here as a writer. here they are
i tried collage.
i got signed to solid state records
i played on a released two records, quit and rejoined BTA
i married NataliexMarie on 6/7/08
and i help teach at gwinnett vineyard bible study.
i have been wanting to express some things in my life, and my creative juices have been flowing. but because of my distain for much of the art floating about today i am unable to write it or compose it or paint it. so i figured i would pick up with the old friend LJ. i have a certain distaste for myspace, and facebook as it were. it seems to be sucking people in making them more and less social at the same time. so i refer to you LJ because no one still uses you and so i do not feel like i am performing or anything.
anywho. so i am on my wife's computer, she is out with some of her friends needing to blow off steam (having just gotten out of school and all). so they went to lenox to meet ms. heather.
here are some ideas that are bubbling.
1. the God who is there. one who is involved and how Christ is for now not just for dying security.
2. i will be your sunrise. i will be your day.
3 painting. wash me o Lord and i will be clean.
4Dm jam.
these things don't have to mean anything to anyone else.
love God, then love others,
duck
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[21 Apr 2004|03:11am] |
"No amount of falls will really undo us if we keep on picking ourselves up each time. We shall of course be very muddy and tattered children by the time we reach home, but the bathrooms are all ready, the towels put out, and the clean clothes in the airing cupboard. The only fatal thing is to lose one's temper and give it up. It is when we notice the dirt that God is most present in us: it is the very sign of His presence."
The Problem of Pain
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[09 Apr 2004|02:39am] |
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on the drive home adrian rodgers was talking about being strong and being feared in hell. he was saying something like you wont have your name on the hall of fame in heaven unless you have your name on the most wanted list in hell. he gave a refereance to ACTS where someone tries to cast out seven demons. and the demons came out of the man and then attacted the exorcist. and dromve him away naked and scared. the man said " come out in the name of jesus whom paul preached" and the demons responded... "we know JESUS and we know paul...but who are you" this person was chewed up because he tried to do something on someone elses word, and not on the power given him. how cool .
i forgot where he said this came from. but it is.... "you have to be ready at your weakest point to defend against the enemy at him strongest" so we have alot of work to do as far as i can see.
2 COR 10:3For though we walk (live) in the flesh, we are not carrying on our warfare according to the flesh and using mere human weapons.
4For the weapons of our warfare are not physical [weapons of flesh and blood], but they are mighty before God for the overthrow and destruction of strongholds,
5[Inasmuch as we] refute arguments and theories and reasonings and every proud and lofty thing that sets itself up against the [true] knowledge of God; and we lead every thought and purpose away captive into the obedience of Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One),
6Being in readiness to punish every [insubordinate for his] disobedience, when your own submission and obedience [as a church] are fully secured and complete.
go and be...
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[07 Apr 2004|01:53pm] |
1 cor 4: 12And we still toil unto weariness [for our living], working hard with our own hands. When men revile us [[3] wound us with an accursed sting], we bless them. When we are persecuted, we take it patiently and endure it.
13When we are slandered and defamed, we [try to] answer softly and bring comfort. We have been made and are now the rubbish and filth of the world [the offscouring of all things, the scum of the earth].
this seems encouraging to me. not that i like to be scum. but for some reason brings me joy. i have once again fallen short this morning and it makes me sad. but i have a choice to do it again. i choose to turn and walk away. METONOIA-(greek) to think again to turn around. this is the word from which we get repent. to turn around. and walk in the other direction. or for Zao fans... "burn it down and walk away" i like that one.
i am hungry right now i have to wait till my mom gets home with my chicken. i love when she gets me food.
i work from 4-1000 tonight. come see me or text me or something
love love.
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[02 Apr 2004|01:10am] |
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18
what a beautiful passage. i would encourage more people to learn about love. the bible is full of it. examples to follow, and directions you can learn from. all kinds of stuff.
i love God. i admit i have been a bit frustrated lately. but iknow he is there. please pray for me.
i get to sleep tonight to a later point in the mornin. like 1159. that should be cool.
i am gonna sleep .
i think
bye
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[31 Mar 2004|11:40pm] |
"You have shown me more wonders than are known in the whole of heaven."
Out of the Silent Planet
the original context of this quote might seem a little weird. but if you look at it as someone talking to God. as the original illustration actaully points to. God shows us beautiful things. if we bother looking for them. he is great. something i fear that is taken for granted in our minds is the sovereignty of the word of God. i know i do. the fact that God elevates so highly his word. we spend so much time looking into deep meanings of his character. but completely overlook the manual that he himself worte for us. to know about him. we look at it and spit on it and try and find reasons for it to be wrong. it is sad. i mean if there was a subject that you were interested in learning about something or better yet; someone. you would read all of the books you can on the subject. and if it were a person. you would read their biography. or better yet an autobiography. well we got one about God and he wrote it. why wouldnt you read it. people say... well if people wrote it down then there has to be something wrong with it. i say... dont you think that if he is almighty he could handle people messin with his book. i mean c'mon give him a little credit. and also. MY GOD IS BIGGER THAN A BOOK.
The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints Ephesians 1:18
wow. i think i honestly i waste alot of time. especially when i try and help people understand God. i wish i understood more.
lord fill me.
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[30 Mar 2004|11:57pm] |
here is a quote that got to me. i think that this account will be saved for christian things and the other will be for mine life.
so here is a good view on many of the sins that we as people are doing. and why it is wrong. really the main point of why things are wrong is because we take them out of the context they were made for.
"The monstrosity of sexual intercourse outside marriage is that those who indulge in it are trying to isolate one kind of union (the sexual) from all the other kinds of union which were intended to go along with it and make up the total union. The Christian attitude does not mean there is anything wrong about sexual pleasure, any more than about the pleasure of eating. It means that you must not isolate that pleasue and try to get it by itself, any more than you ought to try to get the pleasure of taste without swallowing and digesting, by chewing things and spitting them out."
Mere Christianity
this got me good. if you get a chance to read mere christianity i would say to take it and learn alot. but i will also say to never place anykind of wisdom or teaching above that of the bible. that is the utmost authority because it comes directly from God.
i love all of you. if you read this. and i can see that a few of you do. seek the lord. he died for you. give something back. like maybe your life and everything else.
night night
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[30 Mar 2004|12:21am] |
"Can a mortal ask questions which God finds unanswerable? Quite easily, I should think. All nonsense questions are unanswerable. How many hours are there in a mile? Is yellow square or round? Probably half the questions we ask--half our great theological and metaphysical problems--are like that.
A Grief Observed
That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. Philippians 2:10
lord. i love you. and to be honest i am tired. i am tired of being tired. and tired of being patient right now. lord help me. take away these barriers that keep me from seeing you. i do love you. show me your glory. thank you that you let me call you God. i pray that you hurry this waiting. i offer up these things to you. cause i can't take them anymore. it is killing me. i am so full of love. but it is hard for me to take. i seemed to think that this was going to be over. but it was just a new chapter. help me to persevere like jacob. like job.
help me to be the man you want me to be. i am so sick of who i am. give me rest. make me real.
in your name.
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[29 Mar 2004|09:53pm] |
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i dont care if you are on the friends list or not. if you are reading this reply. i am just curious
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[28 Mar 2004|11:49pm] |
you are so beautiful. you amaze me. you intrigue me.
you are my sunshine.
Lord help me. give me patience. i am supposed to guard my heart. so help me do that. i want to do a good job. today is the day that the lord has made i will rejoice and be glad in it.
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[28 Mar 2004|10:08pm] |
i am dang tired. i am worn out. i am certainly in a solomn mood. i think i was invited to do something tomorrow with of my favorite persons in the world. but she has not mentioned it since friday. i definately want to go but i want to make sure i am wanted. it is said that it is up to me to be best friends. so i choose. i reallythink it is not my decision. i took a nap today, it was nice but i still feel gross. i hope God takes this burden soon. but if he doesnt he will be shown strong.
my sweet Jesus. i love you. and i am trying so hard.
please protect me.
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[28 Mar 2004|02:33am] |
whats it gonna take?
when is it gonna be enough
when everyone has thrown at you all the wild cards
and you have seen the true faces.
what am i going to have to do?
when are you gonna trust me
is it gonna be too late, is it gonna take me getting hurt too.
when you see me in the hospital bed hooked up to a machine.
will it mean anything.
does anything get in there. or is someone getting your mail for you
all of the important stuff is answered by someone else. but you get to pick the cereal.
He loves you.
when you hear him who do they tell you it is. who is this man behind he curtain. are his lines that good. what is it that keeps you holding on. and what is this freedom
what are you free from?
what does this freedom mean to you. and how do you feel about it all the time. are you ashamed? do your freedom hurt you? dont feel bad
just ignore it.
He loves you. He wants you. i wish you would see that. i wish you could see that. but you arent done yet. he misses the talks you had. he misses laughing with you. he misses the tears that you brought him. and even some of the ones you blamed him for. he misses your voice. but not in the same way you miss his.
so what is it gonna take. He has already given you all he has.
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[28 Mar 2004|02:14am] |
today i worked. 1030-600. then i went to my show. laura didnt come. in fact alot of people i wanted to see there didnt come. like nat. lou. bridge. but i did see. the birthday boys, george, and others. we played hard. and i got to talk to anthony. i am tired but when i sat down tonight to check my email. i found out i had hurt someone alot worse than i thought. and it wasnt on purpose. i am going through alot right now. i want people to see love, and know it. but it is hard to do when people are upset with you. and i think i am trying to hurry Gods timing. i am trying to deny my wants. that is hard. but none the less possible, and probably more healthy.
i need a break. some time off. maybe i will get one or God will show me i dont need one
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[26 Mar 2004|12:06am] |
hello journal. what is up me? ha.
anyway. today includid alot of thinking. i mean alot. alot of praying also. i am going to see laura tomorrow. and suprisingly enough. i am nervous as all get out. i actually am thinking of what to wear. ha. how weird. and apparently there is a guy i know staying up there tomorrow night. that makes me sad. and i know she doesnt want to have much to do with guys untill she finds one that will love her. well i love her. so..
ha. there we go.
i dont know what else to put in here. so i guess i am ok.
here it is.
There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. 1 Corinthians 10:13
i am amazed that this is the verse that was up today. it means alot.
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[24 Mar 2004|11:17pm] |
well journal. i have alot on me. i am trying so hard to be the man God wants me to be. and i want to be the man that points to God. i am scared now to mess up. i am afraid. i love laura so much. and i want to make sure that i do not do anything wrong. to mess any of anything up. i can see God moving in her life. it pleases me to see. she just isnt ready to do anything about it yet. but God is still faithful. he knows the plans and he will complete them. i dont know how to explain to her that she didnt ruin my life at all. but God used her to fix it. that of coarse sounds like lunacy. but truth always has those weird little twists. i have a massive headache. and am borderline cradeling my self in pain. but i want this out of me. i have such good friends. natalie for one. she is so amazing. she listens well. even though she feels bad for not having anything to say. that is what listening is.
wisdom: you are a good guy. you see things differently than anyone else and i love that. you really desire to see God. and him glorified. and you know you mess up. and you are ok with that but not with staying there...
chris: you are such an amazing guy. i love getting to talk to you. you really have a desire to see things change. and i have seen you fall but i have seen you get back up and start running.
i am thankful i have these friends. i have many others. but these are my sides right now at least. and man Mark. he is great. i wish we were closer but we will be soon. he is going to be alot greater man than i. mark that.
the kingdom is at hand. today is the day of salvation. while it is still called today. turn and become refreshed. be new. here is your chance man.
learn to listen more. talk less. be quick to listen slow to speak. slow to become angered.
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[24 Mar 2004|04:03pm] |
if you read this crap.
pray for me now!
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[24 Mar 2004|01:07am] |
ok the word of God means more than any words i could ever try and think of. and it is completely sufficient. deal with it. these are on my heart right now.
1 COR 13:4 Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; 5 it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6 it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 8 Love never ends;
2 Corinthians 4
1 Therefore, having this ministry by the mercy of God, we do not lose heart. 2 We have renounced disgraceful, underhanded ways; we refuse to practice cunning or to tamper with God's word, but by the open statement of the truth we would commend ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God. 3 And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled only to those who are perishing. 4 In their case the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelievers, to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the likeness of God. 5 For what we preach is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. 6 For it is the God who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. 7 But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, to show that the transcendent power belongs to God and not to us. 8!! We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; 9 persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed!!; 10 always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. 11 For while we live we are always being given up to death for Jesus' sake, so that the life of Jesus may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 12 So death is at work in us, but life in you. 13 Since we have the same spirit of faith as he had who wrote, "I believed, and so I spoke," we too believe, and so we speak, 14 knowing that he who raised the Lord Jesus will raise us also with Jesus and bring us with you into his presence. 15 For it is all for your sake, so that as grace extends to more and more people it may increase thanksgiving, to the glory of God. 16 So we do not lose heart. Though our outer nature is wasting away, our inner nature is being renewed every day. 17 For this slight momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, 18 because we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen; for the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal
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